Dedicated to the struggles of a Golden Dawn Tradition
It's a sad reality many of us fall into. If you have Aspergers or ADD / ADHD the madness becomes magnified to a level that becomes self destructive. Bad habits and drug abuse sneaks into the work and you start adopting unknowingly at first principles similar to Dionysos or Bacchus. You find yourself swept away in a magical current that can eat parts of your soul away, as the Godform of that tradition ego takes control.
Waking up in the morning with the realization I have lived the wrong life and everything I currently know is wrong. It can be a bit scary. Let's take this example. I am red/green color blind or protanopia which is the complete absence of red retinal photoreceptors. Its all about long wavelength cones or lack of in my situation. When I did put the glasses on it was an emotional experience. Nothing to cry about but I was definitely missing something in the myriad of colors that most people see daily.
I guess a hue of red seems to be in everything at least to a certain extent. Green for me was also alien. Its all over the place. Like grass!
But to be more precise I'm talking about everything. Including that which is invisible. Forget the glasses. Everything I heard or saw visibly was misleading. This is an impossible thing to convey when you generally use some aspect of science to understand something. But what if our science is wrong.
Time was wrong. I stopped following traditional measurements of time sexagesimally divided by hours, minutes. We are in the digital age. I also stopped using the traditional calendar for a metric calendar. This might be extreme. But I have also noticed patterns have started to occur that I would not have discovered had I not made the change.
Too much stuff exists between the spaces. This is a mind fuck. I guess it's too much invisible stuff. How is that possible? I guess the only way to understand this is to simply believe what is not there. Pretend.
Just pretend and entity of sort that's invisible with certain characteristics now exists. It's just a game of pretend. Now interact with it. Make the game more lively. Ask for something? Maybe ask for some help in some area in your life that is lacking. Perform these experiments and you will be surprised of the results.
But beyond this. Its not a joke when I say too much invisible stuff. Its no wonder why humans progress in life sheepishly with whispers from the unknown. Collectively moving forward and unrealized slaves to a misleading thought.
Golden Dawn
Why use a system riddled with inaccuracies, errors, and shrouded in mystery. Why use a system that had closed at a peak. Surely we have better books now. Surely we can dumb it down and skip everything. Modern Magick by Donald Michael Kraig will get you there. Techniques of High Magick - A Manual of Self Initiation by Francis King and Stephen Skinner should put you on the right track.
As wonderful as those books were I couldn't help myself. Maybe it's my Masonic background. Maybe theatrics works for me. Creating the tools and setting up the ritual spaces has a magick all in itself.
Come now. I read this book in my teens. Well it was four books I think. So I'm going to completely throw myself into this. Continued in Immersion.
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